Had to restructure the whole evening as it's cold as a witch's tit out there. Smoked 1/3 of a fat doobie. Sigh, my body feels like jello. No tension. I'm high strung. Feels so good to relax. When I run I get high too. A runners high. Feels like this but way better. Added cinnamon to the pumpkin spice tea. CRAZY! Oldest kid is out with friends until 10:30. Gotta hold off on the next third til the husband brings him home and we tuck him in bed. Playing poker. Doing up the $50 table tonight. Fuck it.